Another Monday

I seem to feel much better already. It must be the stress turning me upside down mentally. Note to myself: take a break whenever I feel tired or stressed out because nothing will go in my brain no matter how hard I try in that situation. I just had too much in my mind sometimes and also freak myself out due to the thoughts of upcoming tests, assignments, reports, what-so-ever and having not sufficient time of completing them or even finishing my revision. 

I have heaps to catch up in order to get back on the right track so I really need to get myself organised. Yes, that's what I gotta do now and also try not to get myself tensed up so easily. 

It's another Monday, another new week I hope you all have a good week!

Ciao~

Doubts

I was not used to be like this. I knew what I want, what I aim for, what I want my future to be. I was pretty strong, determined and straight-forward for my dream, future and everything in my life.

It has been a while since I have lost control of myself. Now, I am not sure of what myself want, my aims and my future. Even now, I have phobia of even dreaming my future and start to realise how weak I myself can be sometimes, emotionally. It's freaking me out for being such a person myself.

I have been telling myself to be strong and never surrender so easily but at the same time, I'm not sure if I'll be able to do it. Keep reminding myself of the loves one I have around me, I am really lucky and blessed that I have their supports and loves, hoping I will be able to go through all the difficulties.

It's probably just a stage I have to go through or just the fact that I'm stressed out due to the heavy workload of uni. Anyway, this is a dedication to myself. Hopefully I can get myself back to the right track.

I'm really proud of the old me and I totally miss her. She rocks for being such a happy-go-person.

Please Come Back To Me

Boh xim ahhhhhhhhhh! I don't know why and don't ask me why either cause I myself don't even know where my heart has gone to. Please, please come back to me, Dear Heart. Stop wondering around, will ya? I need you, I need you to focus now on my studies. Exam is coming pretty soon so please find your way and return back to where you belong.

AHHHHHHH! I feel like screaming out loud but I can't do it now cause I'm in the library? Lol.

Exams conclude the end of semester

Hey guys guess what? I'm done with EFDP YAY!! In case you don't know, it's a unit that I WAS doing for this semester. Just then, I had my oral presentation and it actually went okay. At least better than I thought, I'm glad. Hopefully every member of the team is able to get a pass for this unit cause I don't think anyone would want to retake it especially this unit since it's kinda bitchy anyway. Lol. It's really time for me to move on and focus on the other units. Since I've already had EFPD outta my way, I should be probably able to concentrate on my studies for the exams now. Yeh, so I gotta study hard now. I really hope I can get better results than first semester. Soon, I'll be done with first year of engineering, pretty fast I reckon. After the exams, here comes the ultimate freedom and then "balik kampung". 

Anyway last thing I wish to mention in this post is that good luck to everyone who is having exams now. I know everyone is working really hard now cause it's almost towards end of the year which means it's exam period now and I shall see you guys in Brunei soon.

OH MY GOD!

OMG OMG OMG OH MY GOD !!!!!!!!!!

This time really "chua sai" (Hokkien) liao. Oral Presentation for EFDP is just couple days later. Actually I'm supposed to be writing my script now but I'm too scared to continue (I'm halfway through my script). What's the point of writing my script so nicely cause I always end up babbling some irrelevant shits. 

I get nervous when I have to stand and present in front of every single human, PHOBIA! No matter what I do or how calm I am at first, when the presentation starts my heart beats like crazy and as fast as anything you can think of. Slowly, my whole body heats up and that's when I lost control of my mind, head goes spinning round and round then my mind goes blank. "Poof" I forget every points that I've memorised for so many days. It happens even if I practice daily. "Bo bian" (Hokkien)

I myself don't even know what else I can do but I seriously don't want to stuff it up again.

All I can say is "OH SHIT" !!

Let me just get back to it. Oh man~

Another Friday

Oh my god, it's Friday again !!!!!

Can't believe it just ended so fast.

AHHHHHHHHHH!!!

2 more Fridays and I'm done/doomed.

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HAHAHAHAHAHA!!

I'm insane, look what you've done to me.

This is the most random post ever but I like it.

Oh Dear Friday

Dear Friday, 

I just love you so much that I've been counting down all day long till the next Friday comes along. And, you know the reasons why but too bad for another 3 weeks more, it will be another story. I couldn't and don't even dare to imagine how it will turn out to be, let it be a good or bad one. But what can I do? Nothing, there's nothing I can do. All I'm saying is that I'm so gonna miss counting you down, just like what I always do.

P.S. I'm already missing you.

Yours sincerely,

Joanne Lim