Another Monday

I seem to feel much better already. It must be the stress turning me upside down mentally. Note to myself: take a break whenever I feel tired or stressed out because nothing will go in my brain no matter how hard I try in that situation. I just had too much in my mind sometimes and also freak myself out due to the thoughts of upcoming tests, assignments, reports, what-so-ever and having not sufficient time of completing them or even finishing my revision. 

I have heaps to catch up in order to get back on the right track so I really need to get myself organised. Yes, that's what I gotta do now and also try not to get myself tensed up so easily. 

It's another Monday, another new week I hope you all have a good week!

Ciao~

Doubts

I was not used to be like this. I knew what I want, what I aim for, what I want my future to be. I was pretty strong, determined and straight-forward for my dream, future and everything in my life.

It has been a while since I have lost control of myself. Now, I am not sure of what myself want, my aims and my future. Even now, I have phobia of even dreaming my future and start to realise how weak I myself can be sometimes, emotionally. It's freaking me out for being such a person myself.

I have been telling myself to be strong and never surrender so easily but at the same time, I'm not sure if I'll be able to do it. Keep reminding myself of the loves one I have around me, I am really lucky and blessed that I have their supports and loves, hoping I will be able to go through all the difficulties.

It's probably just a stage I have to go through or just the fact that I'm stressed out due to the heavy workload of uni. Anyway, this is a dedication to myself. Hopefully I can get myself back to the right track.

I'm really proud of the old me and I totally miss her. She rocks for being such a happy-go-person.