Please Come Back To Me

Boh xim ahhhhhhhhhh! I don't know why and don't ask me why either cause I myself don't even know where my heart has gone to. Please, please come back to me, Dear Heart. Stop wondering around, will ya? I need you, I need you to focus now on my studies. Exam is coming pretty soon so please find your way and return back to where you belong.

AHHHHHHH! I feel like screaming out loud but I can't do it now cause I'm in the library? Lol.

Exams conclude the end of semester

Hey guys guess what? I'm done with EFDP YAY!! In case you don't know, it's a unit that I WAS doing for this semester. Just then, I had my oral presentation and it actually went okay. At least better than I thought, I'm glad. Hopefully every member of the team is able to get a pass for this unit cause I don't think anyone would want to retake it especially this unit since it's kinda bitchy anyway. Lol. It's really time for me to move on and focus on the other units. Since I've already had EFPD outta my way, I should be probably able to concentrate on my studies for the exams now. Yeh, so I gotta study hard now. I really hope I can get better results than first semester. Soon, I'll be done with first year of engineering, pretty fast I reckon. After the exams, here comes the ultimate freedom and then "balik kampung". 

Anyway last thing I wish to mention in this post is that good luck to everyone who is having exams now. I know everyone is working really hard now cause it's almost towards end of the year which means it's exam period now and I shall see you guys in Brunei soon.

OH MY GOD!

OMG OMG OMG OH MY GOD !!!!!!!!!!

This time really "chua sai" (Hokkien) liao. Oral Presentation for EFDP is just couple days later. Actually I'm supposed to be writing my script now but I'm too scared to continue (I'm halfway through my script). What's the point of writing my script so nicely cause I always end up babbling some irrelevant shits. 

I get nervous when I have to stand and present in front of every single human, PHOBIA! No matter what I do or how calm I am at first, when the presentation starts my heart beats like crazy and as fast as anything you can think of. Slowly, my whole body heats up and that's when I lost control of my mind, head goes spinning round and round then my mind goes blank. "Poof" I forget every points that I've memorised for so many days. It happens even if I practice daily. "Bo bian" (Hokkien)

I myself don't even know what else I can do but I seriously don't want to stuff it up again.

All I can say is "OH SHIT" !!

Let me just get back to it. Oh man~

Another Friday

Oh my god, it's Friday again !!!!!

Can't believe it just ended so fast.

AHHHHHHHHHH!!!

2 more Fridays and I'm done/doomed.

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HAHAHAHAHAHA!!

I'm insane, look what you've done to me.

This is the most random post ever but I like it.

Oh Dear Friday

Dear Friday, 

I just love you so much that I've been counting down all day long till the next Friday comes along. And, you know the reasons why but too bad for another 3 weeks more, it will be another story. I couldn't and don't even dare to imagine how it will turn out to be, let it be a good or bad one. But what can I do? Nothing, there's nothing I can do. All I'm saying is that I'm so gonna miss counting you down, just like what I always do.

P.S. I'm already missing you.

Yours sincerely,

Joanne Lim

Thank You

I will never forget the moment when you complimented me saying how good I was at Maths. You were impressed when I told you that I love Maths. Then you said you hardly know anyone who really loves Maths with this surprise look on your face.

"You're good, you always score full marks," you say. 

& "......"

This is exactly what I need, encouragements and compliments despite getting things wrong, correct or even perfect. It's been a long time since people last praised me when I got good marks for my studies. I'm really happy and contented with what I've heard today. Receiving compliments does not mean I want to impress and show anyone what I'm good at. Definitely not showing off or being arrogant, it means acknowledgement to me. Acknowledgement means a lot to me as it keeps pushing me moving forward towards my future, path ahead of me.

You may think that I'm just overreacting or being emotional but I do not care because you do not know me well and what I have been going through my life. You would not believe this, me neither, tears are actually trickling down my cheek while I'm typing this post. And, please DO NOT confront me about this post cause I do not wish to talk about it and also, I believe there is not any much of these to be discussed about. I just wish to express them out so I decided to put them into words so yeh.

For your information, do not just simply give me any compliments when you do not mean it after reading this post. It is not like I'm begging for compliments or whatsoever unless you really really mean it. Besides, getting compliments more often may not be a good thing either, I assume you know why.

Hey you, thanks for today as in helping me with the Maths and finally, the compliments and encouragements. I really need them as they meant a lot to me. You have brighten up and made my day. Thank you.

NP/MM

The Awesome Break!

Oh my god my one week break was really awesome. I couldn't even put it into words, indescribable. Why u ask? Cause it was a gorgeous one, my very first time experiencing this kind of holiday. Gotta love it! 

Okay, so I actually went to quite a few places up ahead of Perth, Australia. We went there by driving and stopped at a few places before we reached Exmouth where it was our final destination. Since it needs to take like almost a day to drive to Exmouth directly, we decided to stop at Carnavan for one night. Before Carnavan, we stopped at Leeman for a couple of hours just to have a quick rest. Well, to be exact we stopped at quite a few actually but I can't remember some of their name.

For your information, we did not live in luxurious hotel or apartment. It might be out of your expectation cause we were camping and living and staying in trailer most of the time which were really special and different to me. I like it when we were sleeping, eating, watching TV inside the trailer though cause when I was young, I only got to see those scenes in American movies and I thought I would never get to experience it but I just did! The trailer was actually huge, not a small one that you get to see it on road sometimes. Six people got to sleep in there and there was a tiny kitchen where you could cook, wash and eat. Cool right? What do you think?

And of course we did not go to big shopping centre and stuff like that. We went fishing, swimming and did what we could do in the nature such as beach, sea, bushes, rocky mountains. Anyway, it was all about nature. Isn't it nice exposing and relaxing yourself around the nature. Hell yea, I got to see dolphins, whales, emus, kangaroos and many different animals. I didn't go to see them in the zoo but in the seas, bushes and the Australia outback! What do you reckon, mate? Isn't it awesome?

I think some of you might think this is boring but you're absolutely wrong I tell you cause it was fun. I don't think I did a good job in putting them into words, it was far beyond these words so yeh unless you get to try and experience yourself. I bet you would love it! Trust me on this, it was really really good. Seriously I got to see and experience a lot in this trip and I'm glad I had a chance to go there. I did not have a good time after a long period of stressful study weeks so this trip meant a lot to me as I get to relax and chill myself off.

Couple of photos to share with you below.

A cow spotted in the bushes!

Seawater gets evaporated into salt

Blowhole

Beach

Emu strolling around our trailer

One of the shot of Cape Range National Park

See through the clean seawater

I caught this fishy, Trevally! Big aye?

Welcome to Exmouth

What's interesting is that we drove pass Tropic of Capricorn! Cool stuff.

Officially sick!

Okay, finally I'm sick. 

1) High fever around 37.7-38 degree celcious.

2) Sore throat.

3) Bad cough with flame.

All in one, aren't they great to me? *Being sarcastic*

Reasons:

1) Coughing everywhere. People around me in uni and at home had bad cough like really bad. The germs must have spread over to me.

2) Change of season from winter to spring. People always get sick easily when there is change of season.

3) Overstress, overwork and deprived of sleep. If you read my blog regularly, I'm sure you know that I have been really busy for the past few weeks and didn't not have enough sleep. Only had a couple hours of sleep per day.

I had an appointment with the doctor this morning and waited for my turn for more than 30 minutes in the medical centre. All I got is just a medical certificate. Nope, nothing else not even medicine just a sick leave. He said it's not infectious so I do not need to take antibiotics, not necessary. I just need to rest more and keep myself warm, that's all I have been told. But, I'm glad he gave me a sick leave that lasts for 4 days from yesterday to Friday. Yay! No uni for me finally I get to rest. I really need it as I haven't got any rest since so long. Thank you doctor!

Another issues due to my absence in uni. I've got a big report that due on Friday. It's a group one though but since I didn't go to uni for 2 days already I didn't contribute much on it. I'm pretty sure my boss (leader whom I called him boss) isn't that happy with that so I sent an email to my technical tutor and another lady who is responsible with this unit about my situation of missing all the assessments. Technical tutor seems to be understandable with my situation but that *tut* lady hasn't replied my email yet. Is she doing that on purpose or what? I really despise her because I think she's racist. Well, I'm not going to talk about her. Like I will, duh. Besides that, electrical systems assignment is due on Friday too. Oh crap, yep sent an email to lecture hopefully he'll give another replacement or option. Please!

Sigh, good and bad. Hopefully everything turns out to be okay. Wish me luck people! and thanks for those who sent me those warmth and caring texts and messages hoping me to get well soon. They meant a lot to me. :)

Pursuit of Dream

Go people, 

Go ahead with what you're doing for your dream,

Go ahead with what you think is beneficial to your future.

You never know unless you try,

You cannot be afraid of failure,

You must be determined enough.

"What if it's not gonna work" you ask,

"What if I fail even if I have tried" you ask,

"What if I waste my time for nothing" you ask.

Remember nothing is gonna change unless you do something,

Remember what makes people success is the lesson of their failure,

Don't forget how much and why you want this dream at the very beginning.

Superwoman

Oh god~ Spare me my life please, will ya?

Hmmm..

I've been very very busy after the one week of break. Assignments, reports, tests and exams keep coming to me. I hardly have the time to take a break myself or even have a good sleep. Schedule is very hectic, almost everyday I have something else to tend to or submit for assessment. It seems to be the busiest part of my life so far cause I've never been so busy before, even till I only get a few hours of sleep each day. For your information, I'm a heavy sleeper, I need to sleep in for more than average sleeping hours of normal people so it's kinda tough for me sometimes. "Jia lat" you know? In hokkien means susah/very hard. Indeed, very jia lat for me.

Mentally and physically exhausted. Mentally due to overstress and overuse of brain but why physically? Because I had to f*cking run to the bus stop for my bus to uni this morning. I couldn't be late cause I had my electrical system mid semester exam at 8am. If I happened to miss the bus, I had to walk to the uni which takes more than 15 minutes to reach the lecture hall where I had my exam. Damn, it was really tiring cause I didn't exercise for ages. Current stamina = 0. Except for the fact that I did some workouts at home myself for the past few weeks but I've already stopped my workouts thanks to the hectic schedule of mine. Uni has getting more and more intense, I've got so much to catch up with and I better do that or else *slash* & *blooding splashing out from me* mean death which is horrible. By the way, I normally walk to uni like everyday. Today was an exception cause I was thinking of spending couple more minutes to study the last bit before I went for the exam so I had to take bus for the reason that I can reach the uni within shorter period of time compare to walking myself there. Phew, luckily I managed to catch on the bus to uni.

But I'm sorry don't expect or give me more works to do cause I am NOT a superwoman (Is Superman or Superwoman even existed in this world?). If you do, I think I'll probably break down just like my previous laptop which has officially broke down. Thus, I had to get a new laptop on last saturday. No choice but to get a new one and it's MacBook Pro. Yes, another new apple gadget of mine. I'll probably post something about my apple gadgets on the next post when I have time to do so. (Ugh feeling guilty spending so much money on purchasing the current laptop cause this is the third one already.) Sorry dad. I hope you understand my situation and I think you do. Thank you very much! & I love you!

Okay see ya soon peeps, I gotta work on my stuff now.

Sleepless Nights

Phew~ It's been a while since I had a good sleep or perhaps a nap. Why said so? Cause I haven't been sleeping these few nights, only for a few hours then woke up early in the morning to finish off the reports. At least one thing to be submitted each day and continuously. GREAT stuff aye! Feeling satisfied after taking a long nap this afternoon. Woosh~ Finally got to have at least a good sleep.

Uni life oh~ I was expecting uni life to be very relax and easy but I was very wrong. Very wrong. People kept telling me that uni life is gonna be one of the best thing in your life cause you don't have to go to uni everyday and your time would be very flexible. But I keep asking myself why isn't it happening to me. Why not me?

Now, I realise why. I think it has something to do with the course people do. The course I'm doing right now... Sigh, I'm really speechless sometimes. I have to go to the uni to attend my tutorials or lectures from Monday to Friday, morning to late afternoon, sometimes evening. Basically it's just like going to school everyday but going to school would be much more fun and less stressful cause in uni, you will need to focus and concentrate what is being taught most of the times or else you're gonna be a dead meat. I do no need to elaborate furthermore on this cause you might get the idea of how uni life is now.

Not to hide it with you, I do skip lecture though, not tutorials cause I need a break sometimes and give myself time to chillax a bit. Ops, I did it again today cause I couldn't wait to go home and sleep my ass off after so many days of sleepless nights. Feel guilty but at least I can manage those lectures myself so not to worry about it. The units I'm doing at the moment are like math and science stuff so it's still okay for me, just that I hate it when I need to do reports. It's okay to do it once in a while but in my case, the due date for the reports is all packed up and I can't even have a break before doing the next one. Not every time but it has been happening for quite a number of times already since semester 2. So yeh...

Thus, weekend is the thing that I anticipate the most and YES! weekend is arriving soon! Awesome shiz~ It's the only time I get to chillax with the friends, eat good food and rest my mind a bit. Talking about the stress, it actually isn't a bad thing cause it drives your motivation sometimes but getting too much of that might be a little tough when you're going through that stage.

Okay, see you soon weekend.

Just to add a one more point, sometimes I would even need to stay at home during the weekends and thanks to the shizzz. AWESOME!

Tick Tock, Tick Tock

Tick Tock, Tick Tock,

Time is running fast,

Every seconds, minutes, hours,

Are you up with it or still catching up with it?

Tick Tock, Tick Tock,

Ever since it starts to tick it just won't stop,

No matter what reason you have or who you are,

Aren't you afraid of losing more of your time?

Tick Tock, Tick Tock,

As it moves forward, you're getting older and older,

Even, leaving your past and memories behind,

Aren't you scared of getting older and losing more?

Tick Tock, Tick Tock...

Keep it up if you're on the track with the time,

Quickly catch up with it if you're not on the track,

Cherish the precious time if you don't want to lose anymore,

Because we cannot afford to lose the precious time and our loved one.

Don't be scared of being old cause it means you're getting wiser and wiser,

Age is just a number and for the real purpose, it reminds you of how many years you have lived so far,

As for the memories, it's gonna be the most beautiful things in your life that you will reminiscence in the future,

So let us race with the time and see what's ahead of our path, be strong cause it's gonna be a tough one. 

Hit Right Through My Heart

It's the beat,
It's the rhythm,
It's the perfect vocal they have.

Even if I do not understand what the lyrics means,
Even if I have not experienced that story in my life yet,
But when I watch and listen to it, I seem to have a taste of that feeling.

The sorrow,
The sadness,
The misery that torture them.

Perhaps, the happiness,
The satisfaction,
The enjoyment that overflow them.

Music,
So it is the music they called,
Being so wonderful and hit right through my heart.

Feels Like A Korean

I've been listening and exposing myself to Korean Pop music since last year. And I gotta tell you, it's addictive. I never thought I would get myself intoxicated by K-Pop music so much. Dang, those songs are just purely awesome. I'm feeling the rhythm every time I listen to those songs even though I don't understand Korean language. Actually you don't have to if you originally don't (I'm planning to learn it if time allows me), all you gotta do is feel it, the music and the beat.

Nowadays, I only listen to K-Pop music. I do still listen to Chinese and English songs though, just that I'm spending most of the time listening to K-Pop music. Everyday, I keep searching for new K-Pop songs to feed my thirst for this current addiction of mine. I just won't stop listening to it. That's all I can say. 

P/S: Korean singers can really dance. My heart melts when I watch them dancing in the music video. How I wish I could dance just like they do.

Go check it out if you haven't done so but I assume most of you have already cause K-Pop has gone international now.

Childhood Friend

When I was young (couldn't really remember how old I was that time), I used to have him around my side all the time.  He was my friends and at the same time, being my far away cousin as well. We played together, went to the primary school together, had fun together and basically doing almost everything together because he was living quite near to my house. It was the old good times we had together.

Abruptly, I was told that he had to move all the way to Singapore due to certain reasons which I'm not particularly too sure what they were as I was still very young. I couldn't even barely remember how things went after he went away and didn't have the chance to send him off the airport. In my mind, as if he just disappeared from this world and no further news about him were being announced.

Once in a while, my family did mention about him and say he was doing great over there. Nothing much in particular except for the fact that he was doing very well. At least, I still got to know that he was doing great all those times. What a relief.

There was one time I got the chance to see him after he left for so many years. It was during my secondary school (can't remember my exact age though). My sister, another childhood friend and I were all tensed up and excited at the same time. Complicated feelings were all mixed up when we were told that he was coming to visit us. He has grown so much that I couldn't really recognised him at first. Everyone was happy and laughing all the time and we got to play with each other once again. Indeed, it was the old good times. Memory was being refreshed and it was just like the time we used to spend together.

Up until now, I haven't got any chance to see him again even though he did go back to visit everyone a couple times cause I went overseas for my further studies after graduating from my high school. What a waste, I know right. Fate, i guess. I was delighted when mum called over and told me that he wanted to see me but we couldn't. It's alright I thought, as least he still wanted to see me after so long. I'm happy that he still remembers me as his friend.

During my previous semester break, I went back to my real home where I belonged. He arrived one day before my flight returned to Perth to attend his uncle's wedding. I really wanted to see him but it was all sort of complicated and also due to the time constraint, I missed the chance to see him again. What the, I know right. Just before I went to the airport, my grandma put me on the phone. It was him and I was feeling a bit nervous as we haven't talked to each other for ages. It was kind of rushing so I only got his email address. Yay! Like finally. Internet is like the coolest thing ever cause once I have your email address, we can be connected all the time (you know it). 

But I still can't get in touch with him yet even though I've already added him and even sent him an email. I'm wondering if I got the incorrect spelling or whatever it was. Very disappointing after going through all these. I'm thinking if he's wondering why haven't I contact him after that but there's nothing else I could do except for another chance in my life.

Anyway, I believe I'll definitely get the chance to see him again in future. I could give him a visit if I happen to go to Singapore. That's all I have to do I suppose. Till then, I hope he's doing great and I wish him the best wishes! And lastly, i would wish to say "I miss you, my friend".

Emo Wave

I've realised nowadays people keep posting emo status in Facebook including myself which I'm not to be ashamed to admit. Perhaps, posting a sentence from particular lyrics which implies how they feel. Why is this so? They've got nothing else to do, are they? Well, I guess people are just feeling depressed and down themselves, mostly due to lovesick. Not all but most of them I suppose.

Did it just hit on you? 

Are you experiencing exactly the same thing that I mention as well?

From my perspective, posting this emo status which describes certain feeling that people are going through is just like what I'm doing now, blogging, by putting everything or anything of what you feel and think into words and share it with people that you're connected. Agree with me? Or maybe disagree then. Anyway, this is what I think, it's only my personal view. It maybe wrong so you don't have to take it seriously. Everyone has their own view, I know.

Sometimes, I also do post things like I mention above in Facebook especially when I'm feeling dejected and stressful. I tend to get blue easily ever since I went overseas to pursue my further studies. This might be due to the loneliness and homesickness, feeling far apart from where you belonged and used to be. Apart from that, it is more likely to happen because of lovesick if you have fallen with someone else. But bear in mind, all of these don't mean that I don't have any friends or people who talk, care or love me here. It doesn't mean I have fallen for other guy. Those are just assumptions and possibilities. I'm making this sound more ambivalent and it's a good thing to do cause I don't want anyone who concerns about me to worry about my life. Truth or lies? 

Anyhow, life here is going pretty well. Nothing big deal except for the bombardment of reports and assignments that are pissing me off every time and causing more stress over me. Perhaps, I shouldn't barry about it so much cause it meant to be this way. Came to think of it, I've still got two more reports to be done. Annoying much! But honestly since I came to Perth, life has changed dramatically, even my attitudes and perception of different things. 

It is much expected as living in another country with different cultures may alter your lifestyle and point of views. I've learned and experienced a lot and also get to know more different people. There are good and bad things and going through all these really have taught me a lot that I didn't even realise it could go this way. Overall, it's always good to experience them.

Life goes on and there are still many things and events waiting for me to be experienced so I gotta be strong and determined! Yes, that's what I gotta do. Be more positive towards life.

Noobie

I've been wanting to create my own blog just like what others do for a long time but I haven't got any time to do so until tonight. Well, you can say it is just an excuse because I actually can manage to do it no matter how busy I was. Anyway, this is going to be my very first post on this blog (obviously) so I'm trying to write this not boring and dull as I can or else people might not even want to read my blog.

To be honest, I'm still not very good at editing the whole blog as I've mentioned that this is my very first blog that I have created in my whole life. Hopefully, I can spend more time on discovering this whole new thing and writing more posts. Life at the moment seems a bit hectic due to assignments, reports and a few things to catch up with. So, this is what they called uni life. Assuming most of the readers are around my age, I believe you're all experiencing the same thing as me.

Reason why I decided to blog: Firstly, I thought writing my minds out would make me feel better as in expressing all the emotions and thoughts. Rather than keeping everything to myself, which I personally think it makes life harder and pretty stressful at the same time, I've decided to put them in words and share it to the readers. Another reason is that I wish I could improve my English by writing more but definitely I will have to write more often to achieve this aim of mine. 

I should probably read more books but I'm being so lazy lately even though I'm having a study break for a week. Actually, I'm supposed to take this week to catch up what I've missed for the past few weeks but I'm just too lazy for no reason. I need some motivation and seriously, I can't afford to lose any more time to achieve what I aim for that is higher results for this semester. I promised myself not to slack anymore, it's okay if I slack once a while, and study hard. I really hope I can do this and not be disappointed with myself once again.